Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Dear Dog Vomit Girl

So I have this dog named Toby. Toby has been with me for a year and a half and always seems to teach me things. Now this either says something about his intelligence...or mine. I was taking Toby outside one day and I as I was sitting there watching him roam around the yard I was contemplating life and getting frustrated by thinking about who I was becoming.

My thoughts were jolted as I noticed Toby throwing up in the yard, which for Toby isn't an unusual occurrence. Since it was in the yard I didn't worry about cleaning it up and as I was almost back to my contemplative state I noticed Toby going back to his vomit. I leapt off the porch in one fleeting moment and was by his side in a flash to encourage him away from the content that was formerly in his stomach. Whatever it was had made him sick, so there's no point in trying to re-digest it.

My thoughts immediately went to Proverbs 26:11 "As a dog returns to his vomit so does a fool repeat his folly." Then it hit me, this is exactly what I was doing. I was living my life wanting to change and be this great person that God wanted me to be, but I felt like I was getting hung up by the same things every time. Just like it's in Toby's nature to return to his vomit, it's like it was my nature to return to the very same things that I knew would hurt me or mess me up.

I think I even wrote in my journal one time, "Dear Dog Vomit Girl: You're doing it again..."

Months have passed since this initial realization, and some things have changed. Toby still throws up a lot, but he doesn't go back to his vomit. Something in his nature changed. And I have begun to think about God in this way too. I think many times He is sitting on the porch, just like I was, watching me roam around in the yard, and sometimes whenever I throw up something that has hurt me and made me sick it catches his attention. As I try and go back to it, He jumps off the porch and rushes to my side to lead me away. That way just as Toby learned not to return to his vomit so will I be changed by God as He leads me.

This blog was written by Ashley Gunter.

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